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    I used to be very selfish only in order to get what I want ,never thinking of others and my company,following the case that it was difficult for others to accept me ,which gives me some thinking:what kind of attitude to life  and job is correct and would give me the feeling of going back to home.in the past,in my working time ,I always felt passive and had much hatre on my leader whom I think was inferior comparing to me,and I have ambition to take place of him,even I want to give him a lesson by attacking from my gangs.yes,I am not good in relationship with others,I want to do what I like instead of the things that I do not like.

      I felt the anguish which disturbed me severely and had no goal to fulfill ,which puzzled my mind ,did not know how to get along with my surrounding.in daytime,like a wild dog,I ran here and there;in the night,I can not sleep well. I am in the absolute mess that scattered my mindset and confused my thoughts ,leading to the void and to the isolation from others and to the hell without happiness.even if I read lot of book related to the culture and philosophy ,economic ,literature and so on,which just directed me how to be sucssessful in this world through my diligent efforts and working hard,and never taught me how to be tranquillized and to eliminate the desire that is beyond people’s limitation. Yes ,frankly speeking.i have got lot in material and have house and wealth,but I have not any feeling that I am happy,am pleased,peace.       The value of the human being maybe is on what people are doing,have done or will do instead of thinking themselvery much.to do something beneficial to society is the recommended way to gain respect from others.why do lots of people feel shortage in this world just because they need so much that it is difficult for them to satisfy with themselves and they never look up to see the high sky and the remote land ,which would give people a metaphor that the world have given your rich kingdom.why are so many people focusing on the money instead of pusuring the holy sprit,just because they are lost in their mind and are having no consciousness to enjoy the wind ,sun,moon,scream and so on.we have no choice but to teach ourself to cherish the illusory life and to get the significant way to keep you away from covet and lust.       Now I understand why I am always in the anguish, just because I have so many desire that I have to strain my nerve to grasp the objects I want urgently.now I should build my faith that is benifitting to society and diminishing my desire for body pleasure and money.i will change my attitude to life ,to job ,to work hard and to ignore the earnings I would get.and in my home I should take care of my wife and my parents,and must do following the morality and rules.i want to write lot of articles about my thoughts related to the love and truth,and willing to utilize my wisdom to give the readers advices and humor ,and my understanding about buddish and Christian.       To give instead of only wanting to get is the good way to make your chest broader and be worth respecting from others.to judge a person should not depend on what they said,just on what they did,have done,will do,and if you want to benefit the world,you should begin to smile to others and give one of your hand to the need,and give your love to the people  who are in the miserable condition and work hard for the nation. [责任编辑：叶子]　 赞